Debí Tirar Más TikToks

the possible #tiktokban has me spiraling a bit because as a grief content creator on the platform, i’m realizing how much we don’t appreciate something until it’s gone.

the anticipatory grief is real, and there are so many layers to this. like, i LOVE the community i’ve built on there: first-gen people like me who’ve been through the tragic loss of loved ones. people i’ve had the honor of having on the griefsense podcast, and meeting specifically through tiktok. it’s been truly lifesaving. like these are people i’d want at my wedding or speak at my future funeral. these are people who are my mirror reflecting back the strength, resilience, and creativity i didn’t always know i had.they’re the people who tell you “im so happy to see you smiling” because they remember the days when you couldn’t. we’ve shared our first “worst thing can ever happen” together - and we’re complete strangers!!! i will also miss the search engine voodoo that is tiktok - like - finding people just like me all over the world, people who gave words to things i didn’t know how to express. it pushed me to embrace that my lived experience is more than enough to start creating or like one of my favorite content creators (Hindz) always says: “my credentials are in my spirit” or when he says “the best nutrition is self expression.”

on top of this, tiktok also helped us imagine careers and possibilities we never thought were for us. and while people love to say oh "own your platforms," it’s a yes/and situation for me. yes, it’s important to have your own spaces, AND it’s equally important to build community where people who look like you and share your experiences already hang out. tiktok has been that place. and to think i was JUST starting to take it more seriously!

to think it could disappear... let’s just say, the grief is layered. i appreciate it so much more now. plays debi tirar mas fotos by bad bunny 🖤

sending love to all my fellow creators & grievers on tiktok 🧡 

con amor, mimi